Tuesday, November 21, 2006

thoughtful

these days have been good for me...
or bad for me. depending on my perspective of my situation.

currently, at the moment, life is treating me like shit, but i foresee better days ahead. so... its alright. i believe that if one can endure shit, he will live to see better days.

anyways... everything is good. life is treating me just fine. my girlfriend is really great ( i just wish she would be more encouraging instead of pushing me below my spirits all the time. it gets really depressing at times.)

well, meeting Shirly Joseph at the cafe on thursday. thats the day me n her are going to vivo city to catch a movie.

hmm... i wonder how her haircut looks like... (i bet she's hot) XD

Sunday, November 19, 2006

longer and shorter days

days... seem to past so quickly...

after starting work at G2000 tampines, ladies. i feel more alive each day, yet more dead each day. its like being alive, yet being dead at the same time. alive in a sense that you know you have a purpose. but dead, in a sense that you're not living the way you really want to.

i wonder if my getting a part time job is a blessing, or not.
right now...i have much projects, but little time. because i have never bothered to manage my time before, as i always had too much. but now with work, i have so little time, so, i am pretty screwed in a sense that i have to learn and adapt pretty quick, or i'll get PWNed.

anyways, school is cool. i am learning more as the days go by. learning some, yet losing more.

the term 'education' baffles me. because... i feel the more a person 'educates' him/herself, the more... less human, they ultimately become.

i don't know. i don't feel very human at the moment.

do you?

Monday, November 06, 2006

job madness

when one is looking for job, none comes.

when the time comes to stop working, jobs hop in like nobody's business.

so damn sickening.

Monday, October 30, 2006

Lucky Sunday!... or maybe not...

As the title suggests...'Lucky Sunday!... or maybe not...'

I went for a third interview today... I got the job.I don't know if thats a good or bad thing. Anyways, I'll be working at that particular job starting next sunday. For the rest of this week, i'll be going down to orchard for work.

Tomorrow will be the second day of school... I don't know why, but i am not looking very forward to it.

Haha, now to more interesting things.

well... nothing really interesting in my life right now... i'll update some time soon.

lol~

don't rot on me dear diary, and carry on reading readers!~ =D

Saturday, October 28, 2006

first day at second job of my life

after working for 2 months in an IT retail shop, not a very big one... i changed jobs to a large fashion botique.

deciding not to name it, all i'd say is it is located at meritus mandarin, in orchard. well... after switching jobs, i am upset to say, it isn't much better than my previous job, as currently, i am not allowed to 'chit-chat' with my colleagues, not allowed to carry my wallet and handphone around. i feel so... departed, away from the world.

anyways, at least the music is nice.

the customer flow is madness, and the fitting rooms are always in a mess... as a general helper, my job is basically to tag clothes with their stupid things, and fold clothes and ask customers if they need any help. i feel so limited. as in... i know i can do so much more than this. haha, my mother told me not to care about it. she says, focus on the money, then don't bother about everything else.

i feel... that is quite logical, if you think of it as money as the center of your life. but... if you want meaning in your life, than... that is notquite possible. anyways, i am working in this job, for the challenge of promotion.

hais.... but still, the location is retarded. i hope the other job i applied for calls me soon. i am starting to regret my decision to work 4 times a week in such a faraway from home place.

i miss my darling also. when she's in the east side, and i am in central, i miss her so much. mayb because they always play love songs in that stupid place. RAWR!

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Money nonsense

these days, there has been many issues.
i think... this holiday... is one well spent. i think... i have grown a little bit more mature.

i feel... more composed now, as i am typing these words onto the keys of my laptop.

i wonder... if only life could be more simple. doing what needs to be done. leaving the cares of the future to itself. its a life worth living for. anyways, to the point. :D

a couple of days back, while i was at Esprit, Orchard. I saw this shirt i really liked. My sweetheart said she found it too glaring, as in, the colors were too stunning. I thought i'd look really good in that, but i didn't buy it at that moment because i wanted to hear more opinions first, so yesterday, with one of our old friends and my sweetheart's sister, i bought the shirt, because they gave positive response.

sitting back and reading the above paragraph, i find it so... formal. well, i wonder if its a good entry. it seems to lack emotion.

but then again... how do words carry emotions anyway?

Monday, October 16, 2006

shopping spree

i've been out shopping.

it's fun. unfortunately, i broke my glasses yesterday night when i accidently sat on them. damn.
i managed to bug a hundred dollars out of my dad, makes me feel a little guilty. ah well... what to do? i was lazy and didnt work that much. hais... i feel like a giant mosquitoe, though the feeling will eventually wear off, it still isnt very nice of me. anyways...

for shopping, i blew $43.45 on a really good looking nike shoes. i kinda bought the wrong size. and also, bought the wrong item, i didnt really need a shoe for water sports. thank god, the guy that sold me the shoe was gracious and he told me that he'll allow me to change the product this one time. so i changed it for a bag and a yoga mat.
XD the funny thing is that i dont learn yoga, yet. haha, ah well, i think i'll go down to the community center nearby to check out their yoga lessons.
and also, i've got to get down to REALLY repair my bicycle. i really really want to cycle more again.
so, with that, i took a walk around city hall. i blew $7.80 on a whopper meal. its ridiculously huge, though not as big as carl's junior, its definately worth the money. stupidly full.

ivan, my old friend, i wonder if i can even go out supper with him anymore. on my way back just now, there was a terrible ache on my chest. at my solar plexus. the pain was sharp and intense, it left as soon as it came. i am sure nothing is wrong with me though. i will live a long life.

in church today, pastor said the only thing a believer has to labor for, is to labor into the rest of God. even though i try, when i confess that i am the righteousness of God, it makes me more worried, so simply saying, the more i confess, the more i worry. i think it is because i lack understanding of the message of grace. ah well, i'll learn. anyways, i wonder if the church accepts students on internship programs. haha~